Today I decided to take the jump out of my own comfort zone into the world of the unknown. I started to research the prerequisites of working as a photojournalist for CNN. The opportunities are plentiful and the qualifications actually are minimal. So with my history of education and experience in this field, no bragging intended, I figure this would be a walk in the park, but… something stopped me. There were many positions to be filled, from internships to employment, and the positions are all over the country, let alone all over the world. As I looked through the listings I could feel the swelling of my chest and the shaking of my hands become a reality. My thoughts where getting louder then the words I had been reading. I stopped to regain my thoughts as to why I wanted to do this in the first place and you know what I came up with? I’m not ready…point blank! As much as I want to do this, it would interrupt the plan I had set out to do in the first place. I graduate in May with my BA, and then I have two years left for my Masters, so I can teach Journalism/Communications when I’m ready to retire from freelance writing and reporting. The sound of my heart beat and the shaking of my finger when I went to submit the resume was a reminder of the plan that I had already set in action. I spent my younger years raising my children, and caring for my families needs and put my life on the back burner. I wanted to stop my education because I didn’t want my boys to have a part time mother, as I’m sure some have experienced. Now its time for me to finish what I started, not for my family, but for me. In a sense, it sounds selfish a bit, but this lifetime is not a prelude to the life I am supposed to live. I was meant to have my sons, I knew their names long before they where born. I was meant to have the order of events in my life that all has come my way. My going back to college has been a testament to them “that it’s never too late to learn, or start again” The Divine only knows the number of days in ones life, so I had better make everyday count for something. One day, hopefully soon, I can hit that submit button and know that it’s time and I am ready. The order of operations has been done correctly and the equation is complete. ~Ve